I've been talking about it for ages, mulling it over, asking opinions, delaying, thinking a bit more, looking online, talking it over again, delaying a bit more. But....I've decided finally, enough is enough. I've taken the plunge and signed up for another year of Cilex studying. For those of you that don't know, Cilex stands for The Chartered Institute of Legal Executives. In short i'm studying to (hopefully) and eventually become a Chartered Legal Executive aka Lawyer.
I started almost 3 years but for many reasons I only completed my first year before taking time out for maternity leave. I wish now that I'd just got on with it and completed the last 5 units I need to do in order to finish the first half of the qualification, but hindsight is a wonderful thing. And saying that, I really don't know if I could have managed it with a newborn and a 3 year old running around. Guess I'll never know. Now they're both a little older I'm hoping I'll have more time to dedicate - no sorry - "magic out of thin air" for studying.
God knows how I'm going to manage this, seriously, I think I've lost the plot but it needs to be done. I'm a perfectionist by nature and I'm completely self critical, I want everything done now and I hate having to wait. Accepting I'm in this for the long haul is the hardest thing, and trying to convince myself anything but a fail is acceptable, when we all know really I'll only be happy with a distinction at the least.
So bring it on, Land Law and Conveyanacing are calling my name - they sound riveting I KNOW, it's going to be a long hard road but hopefully I'll get there.
"Even a tiny step is one step closer to where you are going" - Ron Kaufman
